Fake it until you Make it

Faking it perhaps sounds like a horrible mantra. Faking, pretending, posturing, projecting – may sound like excuses for lying. I am not fond of lying, actually I find myself to be particularly inept at it. Blatant honesty or uncomfortable silence are my two modis operandi. But lying, deceit, manipulation make my stomach ache and I feel…

Another voice the abyss

This site is a way for me to discover myself as a writer and observer of the world. I am a teacher, so thinking I know best is what I have a license in. But my intention is to move beyond my prescribed life and delve into more that lives on the outskirts and isthmus’…

retail therapy

i love shopping. i always have. it used to be a time for family bounding, with my mother, my grandmother, my friends, and now just some quiet time to myself. what is it about shopping that feels so rewarding, like winning a prize, accomplishing a goal, strategizing a good play, a small thrill. yes as…

the physicality of anxiety

what an anxiety attack feels like, is different than a panic attack, I think. My shoulders get tense and soar. My breathing is short and even when I try to breath from my diaphragm, it reverts back. My thinking gets shaky, like its hard to hold onto one thought, and then there is like an echo…

pirhanas on the woman’s soul

whether reading the magazine industry pirhanas that feed off women’s insecurities or the holistic meditation that profit from trying to absolve women of these guilts, the mantra is that “you must love your body”. The heart and the mind are intertwined and your physical body feels the vibrations from your larger self. But for the…