A while back, this guy I went to high school with began dating an (ex)friend of mine. Eventually he felt comfortable enough to assess my current self to my teenage self. You see in high school I gave a total of zero shits about social norms. I never had a chance to “belong”, so much…
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count all the things that might kill you
I consider myself rather immune to the fear mongering that is the media’s bread and butter, but I am always amazed by how slick they can slip ideas into my subconscious. So here are the things that might kill me that have crossed my mind today: my birth control sleeping with my cell phone on,…
bad driving and other privileges
I am a bad driver. Not a dangerous driver, not a speed demon, or someone who does not know how to use blinkers. My driving is generally good, unfortunately with driving it is the little moments that lower your overall score. I sometimes fail to check my blind spot when merging. I honk when a…
the physicality of anxiety
what an anxiety attack feels like, is different than a panic attack, I think. My shoulders get tense and soar. My breathing is short and even when I try to breath from my diaphragm, it reverts back. My thinking gets shaky, like its hard to hold onto one thought, and then there is like an echo…
first world vision deficiency
obviously I have not left the first world – intellectually, emotionally, spatially, just floating in my bubble of 24K gold. I was so drastically yanked out of my dulled down, subdued, blindness that begins to cloud your vision when a person has been isolated in the first world for too long. There all these issues that…
repost: what is collective failure
Why write? I teach, I live among curious, thinking, learning creatures that make my mind spin. It is a good spin, it keeps my mind sharp. But sometimes there are observations that I need to share, outside of my mind. And most of that has to do with how we, as a society, have failed…
pirhanas on the woman’s soul
whether reading the magazine industry pirhanas that feed off women’s insecurities or the holistic meditation that profit from trying to absolve women of these guilts, the mantra is that “you must love your body”. The heart and the mind are intertwined and your physical body feels the vibrations from your larger self. But for the…
collective redemption (repost from the beginning)
the essence of what I am writing here I had started this blog with just my name, but it is not about me as a person, is about me as a thinking, observing participant in our world. Collective failure was going to be my first entry. And it seems like quite a depressing a notion….
what could be a bigger downer than “failure”
I had started this blog with just my name, but it is not about me as a person, my writing here is meant to be me as a thinking, observing participant in our world. Collective failure was going to be my first entry, which seemed like a terribly depressing notion. I’d pondered, “will I simply…
what is collective failure
Why write? I teach, I live among curious, thinking, learning creatures that make my mind spin. It is a good spin, it keeps my mind sharp. But sometimes there are observations that I need to share, outside of my mind. And most of that has to do with how we, as a society, have failed…
collective failure 